Tuesday, June 05, 2007

what is essential is invisible to the eye

ten minutes ago, i was at the height of overwhelming curiosity...
nine minutes ago, my eyes were wide with awe and disbelief...
seven minutes ago, i felt uncomfortable stirrings of envy...
two minutes ago, i was wallowing in self-pity...
a minute ago, i opened blogger and signed in.

it took stories captured in photographs to make me feel all these emotions. a picture paints a thousand words. in this case, those pictures just gave me a novel!

so what is my antsy self about this time? well, friendster started it. this amazing site helped me reconnect with my childhood buddies. its with great amazement that i found out that many of them have been surfing the world for years! woah! and here i am still dreaming about it with thailand as the ONLY feasible place i can afford to go to.

just to make myself feel worse (i can be masochistic), i opened my own friendster photos. to my shame all i see are immersion pics, xuhs pics, and siargo pics. worse, any viewer could see the glamour of my work! teacher.me. NO snow, NO fireworks, NO disneyland, NO blue-eyed blonde anywhere! just mountains, dilapidated chapels, dust, sweat ( i swear the viewer could smell us!), islands (how unique. there should be a yacht somewhere), and to my horror, CORNFIELDS! before my heart sank down to my banana peels, i gave a sigh of disgust. everyone has been everywhere but me.

why? because i choose to teach.

you can say this is an after-effect of bro. francis' how do you keep the music playing but after i got over (a little) my envy of my globe-trotting friends and shame over my rustic lifestlye, i went over my photos again. i did nt see snow, fireworks,temples,disneyland but what is there is just as awesome. can be even more so!

i saw how i choose my life.

i still envy my friends but i cannot be ashamed of my choices. those pictures that i have are NOT ABOUT PLACES, its about PEOPLE. and thats the most essential thing. heaven is where my heart is. it is with the persons i chose to invest my life with. and when i look at those pictures again, the words they say are more romantic than snow falling over bridges, more powerful than a dozen fireworks, more grand than a royal palace, more awesome than mickey mouse. i see my life and i see people who make up my life. and i am grateful.

ten minutes ago, i opened blogger and signed in.
five minutes ago i was overwhelmed by sadness.
three minutes ago, i was ecstatic with realization.
a minute ago,i said I AM GRATEFUL.

now, i publish.

9 comments:

meily said...

wow!!! i love this post. i really do. "those pictures that i have are NOT ABOUT PLACES, its about PEOPLE" and it was your heart that wrote this line. *wink*


ey mam! you know what? I dreamt about you! we were in someone's place watching tv by the bed. I was eating that time and suddenly you hugged me. :D and then when I finnished eating, I hugged you back.(n_n)

It's just weird you know coz last night as I was struggling to sleep I said to myself, "I just need a hug" and poof! moments before I woke up, you hugged me and I hugged you too! and it's the only dream I could remember! well, jedi jud ka mam... hehe! thanks for that hug. ;)

jedi knight said...

nyahahaha! murag scary man na! haha! you know ive been accused of that many times.ga-encroach sa mind.hehe.

pero im free with my hugs. so maybe i did hug you. hehe.

thanks!

Gali Talabuntud said...

hello shals!

nice put. nice composition. naka-resonate ko...hehehe

"Be Proud! You are a Teacher! Your Husband will the depend on You!" I mean...the country diay depends on you!

hugs

kram

Gali Talabuntud said...

tua ra ! na sobra ug "the" hehehehe... the depend ka dyan!

tc shals!

Gali Talabuntud said...

hello shals!

nice put. nice composition. naka-resonate ko...hehehe

"Be Proud! You are a Teacher! Your Husband will the depend on You!" I mean...the country diay depends on you!

hugs

kram

tara said...

hey maam! i really love the post! =)

au2!

jedi knight said...

thanks sa tanan! i shall endeavor to make more sense next time.hehe. tara! miss u!

Republika Neri said...

Ma'am Alice! i just love this post! A talent in condensing the very essence of a whole novel in a short moment of realization. Awesomely brilliant!

edward said...

you're just lucky to be surrounded with amazing people. (isa nko ana! bwahaha)
shal, intawon ako blog patay kaayo. tabangi sa ko ani. ha ha ha

 
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